{"id":31822,"date":"2019-03-19T18:13:52","date_gmt":"2019-03-19T22:13:52","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/uuwestport.org\/?p=31822"},"modified":"2020-11-15T20:34:18","modified_gmt":"2020-11-16T01:34:18","slug":"i-want-to-be-alive-with-you-by-toko-pa-turner","status":"publish","type":"readings-poetry","link":"https:\/\/myswan.info\/mz\/readings-poetry\/i-want-to-be-alive-with-you-by-toko-pa-turner\/","title":{"rendered":"I Want to be Alive with You by Toko-Pa Turner"},"content":{"rendered":"
I want to be guided by older-ups.<\/div>\n
I want babies to be born where old people die.<\/div>\n
I want to be sandwiched in the middle of a messy togetherness.<\/div>\n
I want to be warned before I do something stupid.<\/div>\n
I want to be forgiven when I do it anyway.<\/div>\n
I want wisdom to be tapped out on my eardrums and not Googled.<\/div>\n
I want transitions to be recognized by fire.<\/div>\n
I want gifts to be educed from children.<\/div>\n
And teenagers and adults and I want to mean something to my community.<\/div>\n
I want to get drunk on substance morning and night.<\/div>\n
I want to\u00a0hear your dreams.<\/div>\n
I want to raise a revolution for gentleness.<\/div>\n
I want to call out the bullshit on consensus reality.<\/div>\n
I want to get rich so I can billboard the highways with validations.<\/div>\n
I don’t want to be another faker.<\/div>\n
I don’t want to show you my good side and hide my humanity.<\/div>\n
I don’t want to dole you out my Self in digestible status-chunks.<\/div>\n
I want to challenge you in long, drawn-out rituals and still find you interested.<\/div>\n
I want to feed you seventeen course meals made with spices I crushed.<\/div>\n
I want to recite you circular poems, each beginning cutting a deeper grasp.<\/div>\n
I want to make you feel something, even if it’s awkward.<\/div>\n
I want to sing you songs which are ancient and new.<\/div>\n
I want to carve stories in trees with tools my elders fashioned.<\/div>\n
I want to keep sharpening them.<\/div>\n
I want to find places we’ve never been.<\/div>\n
And then, I want to return there, but backwards.<\/div>\n
I want to shuffle up words so we don’t sleep through them.<\/div>\n
I want to learn things and then be splashed into never forgetting.<\/div>\n
I want to make you feel seen.<\/div>\n
I want to hold your pounding heart in my gentlest of hands.<\/div>\n
I want to make your thing feel like my thing.<\/div>\n
I don’t want to miss a moment.<\/div>\n
I want to dig at the bottom and find it false.<\/div>\n
I want to turn up unknown depths.<\/div>\n
I want to stand in this hurricane and sing the sweetest,<\/div>\n
most naked song you can bear.<\/div>\n
I want to be alive with you.<\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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I want to be guided by older-ups. I want babies to be born where old people die. I want to be sandwiched in the middle of a messy togetherness. I want to be warned before I do something stupid. I want to be forgiven when I do it anyway. I want wisdom to be tapped out on my eardrums and not Googled. I want transitions to be recognized by fire. I want gifts to be educed from children. And teenagers and adults and I want to mean something to my community. I want to get drunk on substance morning and…<\/p>\n","category_list":"Readings<\/a>","author_info":{"display_name":"Charles","author_link":"https:\/\/myswan.info\/mz\/author\/charles\/"},"comments_num":"0 comments","featured_image_src_large":["https:\/\/myswan.info\/mz\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/08\/fi-kelly-green-1-1024x580.png",1024,580,true],"comment_info":"","taxonomy_info":{"category":[{"value":36,"label":"Readings"}],"post_tag":[{"value":461,"label":"readings"}]},"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/myswan.info\/mz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/readings-poetry\/31822"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/myswan.info\/mz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/readings-poetry"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/myswan.info\/mz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/readings-poetry"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/myswan.info\/mz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/6"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/myswan.info\/mz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/readings-poetry\/31822\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":44001,"href":"https:\/\/myswan.info\/mz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/readings-poetry\/31822\/revisions\/44001"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/myswan.info\/mz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/34469"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/myswan.info\/mz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=31822"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/myswan.info\/mz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=31822"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/myswan.info\/mz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=31822"},{"taxonomy":"text","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/myswan.info\/mz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/text?post=31822"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}